The X List

I think sometimes of making a list
of my frenemies and nemeses
The people who I didn't trust
Or I know turned on me
Or who I just didn't get along with
Even though I'd tried

Something more than just a growing apart
Or a mutual spacing that, if we were in the
Same place
Same time
We'd likely hit it off just fine

A list isntead of glorious relationship failures
Though by no means limited to romance

And I wonder if other people have similar lists
Do others have such colossal pools of burning fire
Blowouts
Blowups
Blankets of silence thrown on once close friendships?

Is this part of being human
Are we supposed to leave everything on good terms
What does it mean, really
That we don't get along with some people

Maybe it never really settles with me
Because of my Protestant indoctrination
To love everyone

In fact that doesn't seem limited to one faith
Seems lots of folks believe
That we're supposed to be kindhearted, generous, forgiving, gracious

So what of all those who are on the X list?
Are reparations meant to happen?

AC, BC, EP, FK, RN, TC, AL, RM, DM, RL, RB, TR

Maybe we aren't to make amends

Maybe


THIS


is where it ends.